Who do you think you are?

There are just some things in life you can't help but wanna share. Some easier to explain. Others you can only wait and see.

I'm having the biggest trouble with that last bit.

If I can prevent every bad thing from happening I would do just about anything but there are some things I believe no matter how many times you tell the person "YOU ARE WALKING TOWARDS THE WALL", they just won't listen. My dad is one of them. Why? Because he has this belief that out of the 99 things you often worry about day and night, only 2 would actually happen, so don't worry.

He makes me sound like an old uncool woman, standing next to him. In my defense.... I haven't any ><. Truthfully, I'm the most uncool person anyone could ever meet. My sister has always joked about my kids loving her more because she's the only one who would give them candy. In my defense... candy gives you tooth decay, people!! In her defense... I'm still uncool. You know the movie "Chicken Little"? Yea, I would actually be the one worrying about the sky falling. When I'm sitting in the car and I have no exam stress to worry about, I would think of as many life-threatening scenarios I can possibly be put in and ponder on the best moves to escape. Ben has been the victim of this and he thinks I'm crazy but anything is possible, man. Scenario Analysis is the best chance we've got.

So tell me.. what would you do if you know something would happen if the circumstances now didn't change but no one would listen to you because you have a paranoid reputation? Let them bang the wall a few times until they hit realization??

Hahah that was actually one of my ideas during a leadership workshop class: "Question: your brother/sister is always playing computer games and not focusing on their studies. What should you do?"

Leave them to fail and then lead by example. They're not stupid. They can connect the dots -.-

But saying is always easier than doing. Now when it is really happening.. I just don't know whether I can just stand by and watch. 

If only words were enough.

Day #10 Kick-off

Last week my new found friend Joycelyn told me that her friend got kicked out from the kick-off meeting. I don't know what you're thinking but I know mine spelled S.A.D. = SAD as soon as I heard it.

BUT ANYWAYS I had my first one today :) It felt good being part of something. Last week I was close to shitting in my pants while I googled what really is a kick-off meeting when they say it in audit. Well, thank goodness there's no need for imagination anymore. I was getting kinda nervous until I got more nervous from 3 to 5pm today.

In a rough sketch, a kick-off meeting is where every team member in an engagement team sits together with mentos sweets on the table ^_^ and discuss the things to prepare for before heading to the client's place to audit. Some matters that are to be discussed are such as the background of the company, timeline of the audit, task allocation among members, materiality (the most famous word in the office!!), documentation requirements and my favourite topic of them all = CLAIMS :D. 

I was worried that I was too unprepared for it though. Audit has got me so rigid these days. Even Steven (the boy who never takes his eyes off the slides in Investment class) is more rebellious than I now D: (as you can see how badly my reputation is ruined). And it didn't help my confidence when my seniors only told me to bring a notebook either (and by this they mean the traditional notebook... not even the laptop kind -.-). But all is well when the meeting started. Like I said it felt good :). I know Ms.Madeline said that we should observe the culture of the company and not just blindly work our ass off for money but the thing is... I was thinking to myself that even if Ms.Madeline hadn't had reminded us of this, this would have been all too noticeable for any newbie at PwC. The director, Mr.Herbert today didn't mind recapping on the background of our client for the benefit of those new to the project. He too emphasized on efficiency and preferred if we had work-life balance. At the end of the meeting, my boss's boss, whom now I refer to as Boss also reminded the seniors to explain to the juniors "why? why? why?" whenever they give any orders. They don't want people doing things without knowing the reason and to ensure this they even have a performance review of which every member is encouraged to write one for their own self-development. So I guess you can say I'm starting to see colours at work ;) despite my melodramas last week :P and my expecting late nights ahead.

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The audit starts next week but there's already loads of the things to prepare for now >_<. More elearns to complete and more research to do. The director and the manager of my engagement team already hinted me today: "now we know these clients prefer to only talk to those they are familiar with so to prevent them from bullying you you have to be professional".

So my dilemma now is how am I gonna transform me from a 2-week-old intern into a 2-year-old professional in 5 days? o_O

*/seeks_advice*